Tuesday January 5

It has a been a hard day.

Grandma didn't have the greatest night.

There was some kidney troubles etc.

Brent just didn't know what to do.

He wanted to be there.

So we decided to get him on a plane and fly him there.

The earliest our of Boise to Salt Lake was tomorrow morning.

So that was gonna be the plan.

Then about 4:20 or so, Brent got a call from Doug saying that she had internal bleeding.

Now was the time to go.

So that is what he did.

We ran around getting stuff packed up for him.

The kids could sense things were not right.

We told them he was going to be with Grandma.

I walked him out to the car, and said good-bye.

When I came in, Elsie was curled up with Cassi on the couch an crying the most gut wrenching cry I have ever heard from Elsie.

My heart broke.

I went right to her, and hugged her, and Cassi and Madi.....

We were quite and hugged and just cried.

Then I got this text from dad when he stopped to fill up on gas.

He said to 'Be Still'.

I felt a calming over me.

Didn't make it easier, didn't stop the crying...but Dad knew that was what we needed to hear.

Port was at Max's house.....

I called Vern to have her send him home.

I told him where dad went and he looked at me with this face that just broke my heart again.

He knew.

Then he started to cry a little......the more and more until he was sobbing.

Cassi suggested that we pull out the pages Grandma had made for us.

over the last year she has been putting together scrapbook pages for her kids and their families.

They have been so treasured.

Stories, pictures, poems.

It did our hearts some good to look through them.

I don't know what will happen....

I don't know.

But I do know these kids desperately love their Grandma.

She is loved by so many.

She is undoubtedly the most self-less person I have ever known.

I have never ever seen her put herself above anyone else.

Ever.

I love her and I love what she has been to me in my life.

I love what she has been to my kids.

My heart just aches right now.

I just got a call....Brent got there safe.

Oh how I wish I was there.

The doctors think that she will go sometime tonight.

Please pray for the comfort of our family.

Especially Grandpa.